Greetings stranger! 
Welcome to learn more about me, the maker of this website! I don't feel comfortable sharing my real name here, and I would like to keep it anonymous as possible so that's why I use the name Nezu or Nezumi. The name is originally written ねずみ in japanese and it means "mouse/rat". I started using it online because it's the name of an animanga character I like. Nezumi is from the dystopian BL manga/anime called No.6!
I'm currently unemployed, but actively looking for a job. I also graduated from an art school last autumn! I want to pursue a career in the film industry and my dream is to become a movie director.
Honestly sometimes the future seems meaningless for me. I'm pretty much struggling already, so it's scary to think how can I survive when i'm older. My BPD impacts my life a lot, it's like my life isn't ever stable no matter how much I try.
Thankfully I have a lot of supportive people around me, like my family and some of my friends. I also try using safe coping mechanisms, like participating in my hobbies and going to therapy.
I personally love visualising stuff, it's like I have a world inside of my head and it makes me feel peaceful. This website is a part of it, for instance I use the same moody colors, music and pictures as I see inside of my head. I personally love "grayish" purple, blue, brown and red tones so much! Things like forests, empty places, fog, old gothic architecture and design are very close to my heart. I might update this section later, but otherwise thank you for reading this! May you find peace in life.
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