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Welcome to my digital journal! Here I write about my life and how I view and feel things on a deeper level. Before you continue I want to give a trigger warning, because these writings inculde sensitive topics about self-harm, mental health and unhealthy coping mechanisms. Proceed at your own caution!

13/03/2025

Tomorrow I have an imporant call to make, and I feel scared. How did I let my social anxiety go this bad? My hands are cold, and that time of the year is arriving. I miss that place. So cold but made me feel comforted. I miss it, even though I was suffering. 5 years ago it started to happen and now I feel empty. I wish I can go to that place soon, and remember all the things we used to do.

12/04/2025

My boyfriend is falling into bad habits again. I know he feels so depressed these days, and when I try and be there for him, he just locks himself away. He hasn't gone outside in a while, and I am deeply worried for his mental health. I feel so hopeless whenever episodes like this happen, because I'm scared that he stopped loving me and that he will leave me. I can't let that happen. No matter what. I miss his voice and his laugh. I miss that smile. He hasn't answered to my calls or messages in 3 days almost. I can see that he's online, playing video games all the time.. but he wants to be alone all the time. I miss him so much, I feel sick. I can't sleep or do anything, I'm just so scared.